Dragonflies and Poppies

I don't know what to say about me or maybe where to start actually. I'll just start by stating the basics.

I'm obsessed with losing weight, trying to find what to do with my life and who i am. I really really despise and hate myself.

I first thought of suicide when i was in my early primary school years... I was afraid of the world and it turned to hate as i grew up. i still contemplate leaving it all but something holds me back.

i dream of swallowing an entire bottle of slimming pills to go, but not before i reach my UGW, showing everyone that called me so many names that i can make it.